Back in 2001, when I first started prattling on electronically, I started to title every entry that I wrote with a quote from the movie that I had on at the time. Tonight’s is brought to you by a middle of the night showing of Serenity on one of the five HBO channels that I get.
All of the old journal entries have now been dragged in to the blog. It’s very interesting and scary at the same time to see entries go back as far as June of 2001. Even scarier was actually reading some of these old entries (as I mentioned yesterday). Most importantly, though, was the discovery that I could actually learn something about myself by reading this old entries. Some memories I had stored away came back at me full force, other things I discovered that I couldn’t remember even if you wanted to pay me to remember them.
One thing became very loud and clear to met though, there is some importance to me in maintaining this useless space on the Internet if for no other reason then to be able to look back at my life at a later date and give myself the chance to slip back into the shoes that I wore at the time and walk a mile again in those same said shoes. The nostalgic effect of this is quite powerful.
I also like seeing the way that the pattern of usage on the journal. You can tell that when I started doing it that I was a man of more time then occupation, and you can also see that at the point where those two became reversed the amount of entries was severely diminished. Such a thing would be expected but I feel that from this point forward I have to fight the neglect and let my fingers do the talking more. I like to write, I like the things that I write when I’ve been doing a lot of writing, and I see some of the guy that I want to be again in those entries of old that I just spent far too much time integrating into this site.
At this moment though I don’t really have anything witty or amusing to write about because it’s two o’clock in the morning and I’ve just resorted to some Bailey’s to get myself into the proper mind set for sleep. Seeing as how I’m a man that is very light on the consumption of alcohol it is doing the job quite nicely.
If you are reading this, welcome to the party. I hope you get to read more from me in the future.
This evening I’ve been doing something that at first I thought was really silly that in the long run has been really informative and weird.
Right now, if you are reading this, then are reading my blog on its new server. I did this to save money (because this is a much better hosting plan) and to make better use of a domain name that I wasn’t using any more. In making this transition I realized that I am soon going to loose the old old old blog that I used to write in. This “journal” was a nice little thing written by someone I knew that would look to directories for journal entries, and each one was a text file that had to manually be uploaded. It was a bit more time consuming rather then using something as simple as Word Press, which in itself almost acts like a word processor.
Faced with the loss of this virtual time capsule into the looking glass of my life I figured I should take the time to sit down and input all of these entries into this blog. One of the first things that I noticed, however, is that this process is very time consuming. The damn formatting isn’t very straight forward and so there are all kinds of line entries that have carriage returns in places that they shouldn’t (although I now realize that I can use Ultra Edit to take out the carriage returns and tabs that shouldn’t be there… damn, this is going to suddenly go a lot faster).
The second thing that I noticed is that it is kind of interesting to virtually go back in time and read about the guy that I was five years ago. I hadn’t gone back and read those entries since I wrote them. Some of the things I wrote I found so funny I was jealous of the fact that I didn’t write them, and then of course I realize that I did. Then I’m stuck wondering why on Earth I can’t seem to write something that witty now, and then I realize that I haven’t really been writing anything lately so that would explain why I don’t seem to write things all that witty any more.
I also realize that I’ve been through a lot in the past five years. It has been an amazing journey, a very testing one, but I’m glad that I made the trip and I survived it.
So, welcome to the next level.