Well, so much for my big speach about being accountable and taking control of my life. After spending a week buried in a haze after my small battle with pneumonia I continued to spend another week lying to myself that I was still in that haze I shouldn’t do to much out of the ordinary. This of course was nothign but an incredible lie to cover up the fact that I’ve avoided 1) taking miserable pictures of my fat self and 2) actually going to the gym.
I know that there are people that love going to the gym, those that go to the gym in supposed protest but still like it, those that go and don’t like it, and those that hate it and don’t go. My current shape would make you think I was definitely one of the latter, but in truth I like excercising. I enjoy the rush you get from getting the blood pumping, I enjoy the sore feeling you get from actually making your muscles work to push weight that they normally won’t have to in a day. The only thing I don’t like about going to work out is doing it alone. There’s something about the comptetion when working out with someone else, as well as the buddy buddy-ness of going with a friend that helps motivate me to keep on a schedule of excercise.
Unfortunately I’m now at a point where it doesn’t matter and I need to get back into the swing of things. Doesn’t matter if I just walk on a treadmill for 20 minutes a day or actually use some machines or free weights… I gotta go. I know from experience that nutrition + regular excercise is the only way to conquer this beast. I know I can do one part, I relaly just need to do the other.
That sure was a nice speach about accountability though wasn’t it? Got me charged up for two days before I nearly dropped dead.
There’s no entry for yesterday with very good reason. The dizzines that I wrote about on the 2nd was the harbinger of the early stages of pneumonia (at least that is what the doctor thinks right now). Let me walk you through my Wednesday of stupidity.
August 3rd, 2005
7:05 am : I wake up feeling like total hell after a night of the chills and sleeping like total crap. I feel dizzy, my entire body aches, my face feels like it is swollen and also it is throbbing with discomfort. I wonder if this is a temporary feeling so I stagger into the shower, get dressed, then have to crash on the couch for 20 minutes because this isn’t going well.
9:00 am : I get to work feeling worse then I did when I woke up. The chills won’t leave me alone as I suffer while sitting at my desk. I have a coworker tell me if it feels like I have a fever and I am told that I am burning up. I take two Advil and try to wait it out, to no avail.
10:15 am : I get back home and begin a marathon sick sleep session all the way until 5 PM, complete with hot and cold flashes.
5:10 pm : I check into Urgent Care at my doctors office to make sure all of this isn’t related to an ear infection. All of the symptoms are very similiar and for some reason I had been plagued by them as much as my daughter had been. When I get into a room the nurse takes blood pressure and my temperature. Turns out I’ve been wandering around like an idiot with a 102 degree fever. They take chest x-rays because I mentioned that breathing was kind of hard in the morning. They see slight fuzziness in my lungs that could be the onset of pneumonia. I’m given antibiotics and I’m told to stack Advil and Tylenol as needed to take care of the pain and fever.
102 degree fever and I was refussing to go to the doctor. Real smart huh?
The thing that gets me about all of this is that I’m struck with some really nasty thing right after I decide that I’m going to take action in my life, make myself accountable for my life, and try to get healthy. The timing couldn’t be more perfect.
In case you cared, the fever is down to 99.7 today after I woke up this morning at 2:25 am looking like someone had dumped a bucket of water on me. Gotta love the sweat that comes from a fever breaking.
I never tried the low-carb life style, and I was very pleased to find on the list I linked to in yesterday’s entry mentioned to combine protein and carbs with every meal. I like carbs. Granted in taking on this endeavor I’m probably going to shoot for eating more smart carbs then my usual bad ones (oatmeal and brown rice vs. bread and white rice for example).
As someone who has high cholesterol and high blood pressure I could never have embraced the pure decodance that the Atkins diet taunted people with.
I’m going to close this one up now because I’m feeling a little bit off at the moment almost to the point of feeling dizzy.
According to this article, the first thing on their list is to eat six small meals a day rather then three big ones. I tried doing this today and discovered some very interesting things.
The first thing that I discovered is that after having my small breakfast, my small mid-morning snack and my small lunch I didn’t have that extremely full fealing I usually got after skipping my big breakfast and eating my large lunch. Usually this really full fealing was followed by lack of desire for dinner. This day, however, I devoured every one of my tiny six meals (even though one of them, for example, was a Jamba Juice smoothy).
I also found that these 10 small meals coupled with plenty of water throughout the day left me already feeling a little less heavy.
All in all a good first day of trying to get things on track.