I looked at the date display and realized now that it is already the 31st of March (or 30 March 1st as my niece, who’s birthday it is, once cutely said). So nice to know that the older I get, the faster time moves. I suppose it will slow back down again should I be lucky enough to make it to retirement age.
A lot of people have been asking me when I’m going to do a show again. When I think about it, I’m actually kind of lucky in that respect. Granted, I can count the number of people who ask on one hand, but at the same time there are some people in the world who wish they could have anyone asking them when they are doing something again. Mind you I’m not saying this to toot my own horn, I’m just observing that I’m kinda lucky to have people interested in what I have to say (or, by some miracle, entertained by me).
I’m sure if I were to go back through this rag-tag excuse for a journal (or is this a blog? I’m really unclear on what the hell a blog is really… don’t you just love the way the Internet is able to create whole new words for things that we’d call something else if we just came across them outside of the electronics world?) I’d be able to find me say the exact same thing I originally wanted
to say, which is the fact that I still have the passion and desire to do shows but being on real radio spoiled me, blah, blah, blah… same old, same old. I might actually be tempted to face the truth which is that I’ve been away from it for so long I’m not sure what my voice is. When I say "my voice" I mean that thing that fuels your words, that which drives you to do something, the thing that makes you go. I can now look back and know that most of what was The Will Wilkins Show was 2 hours of fluff. At most times there was very little substance to it and I’m damn lucky anyone actually wanted
to pay me to do it.
Doing the Netheads show I did on Comedy World isn’t practical to do from home, at least not at this exact moment. That show, if anything, is where my voice really feels like it is at… so it is hard to get my fire burning for much else. The last part that leaves me hanging is, of course, being able to actually provide something real for people to actually make the commitment to come and join me. When I look back at this I know that all of these are nothing but excuses and I am in fact just the laziest person in the world who seems to just want to sit back and wait for the entertainment industry to come to him. Amazingly enough the phone doesn’t ring and no one comes knocking on the door with this approach, go figure.
As I type this, my good friend TiVo is showing me The Michael Essany Show. I won’t comment on the show itself (ask my lovely bride though… she’s got more then an opinion or two about it) but I will say that this kid is at least admirable for his never-ending determination to do a show. The same can be said for J. Keith van Straaten here in Los Angeles, and DS Bishop most of all. People that never stop doing because the stagnation that I have fallen into would drive them to the point of madness.
I suppose after all of this I just need to sit down and determine what time on Sundays I’m going to block off and just do something, anything, rather then sitting here and typing into some web journal why the hell I’m not doing something.
Also, soon Netheads itself will return, with the power team of Will Wilkins and DS Bishop to help you in all your computer woes… bank on it.