Ahhh… another Monday morning ripe with possibilities. What did I do with such a morning so ripe with possibilities? I slept through it.
This could be an adverse reaction to the fact that I have been unemployed for the past two months. This wouldn’t be so bad if it weren’t for the fact that every single day that goes by makes brings me closer and closer to being three months unemployed, then four months, etc. etc. Unemployment is just like quick sand, the longer you are in it the harder it is to get out. Before you know it you are in over your head and it’s all over. Maybe it’s that lack of feeling of “greatness.” You see, for the past three years I’ve been involved in things that seemed cutting edge, new, fresh, innovative. During those times it is very easy to lull one’s self into a believing that they are doing something important, something that one day will evoke memories of “back in the beginning” or as I like to call it, greatness.
I was also involved in the entertainment business, something for some sick reason I have always wanted to be a part of (even though I was on the fringe). Most importantly I was actually given the ability to be an entertainer. I could use some self-depricating language at this point about my lack of any real talent or using the word entertainer loosely, but over the years there have a been a core group of people that kept coming back for more so I suppose that I can’t argue the fact that I am (by definition) an entertainer.
A former co-worker of mine once said the important thing was to have a reason in the morning to put on pants. I guess I haven’t really had one lately and need one. I’m sure what I had today was a necessary day lull in order to recharge the spirit and prepare for another surge of effort in an attempt to better myself.
Let’s cross our fingers and hope I’m right.